SELF STUDY

Monthly Focus ~ Letting Go and Facing God

There’s a transition now in the letting go, and the transformation is the turning around; the transformation of turning around and facing to God, so that now we come back in and now we begin to take hold of the soul that we are.

Full Excerpt  ~

At some point, we’ve got to acknowledge and honor the experience of having made the choice to be here, in this world, because in that acknowledgment and honoring is where we’re going to fulfill it. It doesn’t get fulfilled by us judging it and fearing it and trying to push it away, making it wrong or ourselves wrong or bad. That just creates more separation and pain, and it’s a separation and pain that keeps us trapped here. That’s what keeps the soul in bondage and attached to this creation of time and space. That’s why it is a process of forgiveness, of letting go. That’s a part of us taking responsibility for our choices, and as we are willing to take responsibility, what we’re going to learn then through our experience of all that’s taken place and in that is the fulfillment. It’s not a process of getting rid of or clearing our karma. It is a process of acknowledging, of experiencing, of learning, of awakening. That’s the fulfillment. It’s a very gentle, simple action and process in how it unfolds.

It’s just confusing inside of us because we’ve learned to live a certain way in this world which is pretty much like living as if you were looking in a mirror because that’s what we’re doing here. And people often are upon this journey, I don’t want to say just beginning it because it’s often years of doing this journey, and so many times it comes up like, “Oh my God, this is backwards. Doing Spirit is like doing it backwards.” Well, that’s how it feels in this world, that doing Spirit is doing things backwards, or it’s a paradox; it seems contradictory. 

In truth, Spirit is forwards in the way it really takes place. It’s just living in this world of reflection it’s like living by looking in the mirror and trying to do life according to the image in the mirror rather than the truth of who we are and how it’s done. That’s why it’s so confusing, and that’s where the paradoxes lie. Is that where the paradoxes lie, as in rest, or is that where they lie to us, as in don’t tell us the truth? Maybe it’s both.

So we have to be willing to look and begin to learn the difference because eventually, we’ll see that we are not that mirror image, and we’ll begin to wonder, “Who is that, that’s looking in the mirror? Who is that?” It’s strange because when we’re inside of ourselves, we can’t see ourselves. All we can see is by looking out and seeing the image. That’s what makes it so darn challenging. We’re afraid to let go of the image because then we don’t even have that reference point. And if we don’t have some kind of reference point, well, how do we feel then? We feel lost, right? We feel like we’re struggling. We feel like we’re lost in the ocean, and the ocean waves are just bouncing us around. We don’t know where we’re going or what’s happening, and that’s why we’re afraid to let go of the image that we’ve been hanging onto. 

But that’s where at some point, it does take some faith and trust. To have faith and trust in yourself and in God that you’ll be okay, that you’ll make it through this. “This too shall pass”.

At some point, we’ve got to be willing to let go and allow ourselves to bounce around a little bit. There is a transition we go through or a transformation. In truth, that’s what takes place. But it’s in that transition transformation that we find so challenging. And that’s where we need those stabilizers, those places, and people that we can get that support. But that’s not what we really need. Those are just supports.

We really need that inner connection, that inner awakening, that inner foundation with Spirit because that’s the only truth. The only true foundation is inside. That’s the only thing we really need. The rest, yeah, it supports us. But the true need is always simply within, in the Divine.

That’s why it’s key to always come back in the meditation; to go in and up to the seat of the soul and there begin to awaken and to begin to anchor ourselves in the soul of who we are. When we’ve projected out into that mirror, in a sense, we anchored ourselves there. That’s the attachment. We’ve grabbed hold, and it feels solid for a long time. But boy, when that begins to shake, it doesn’t feel solid anymore. We just got so ingrained and enmeshed in it we believed it was the truth in that solidness. What does it refer to in the Bible, “the shifting sands”? Eventually, we need to find that rock. That’s what we’re talking about. That rock is not of this world, though. That rock is the Spirit within.

So, in this transition, know that we’re just simply now letting go out here where we’ve been holding on. And then when we let go, well now in that is a freedom. There’s a transition now in the letting go, and the transformation is the turning around; the transformation of turning around and facing to God, so that now we come back in and now we begin to take hold of the soul that we are. And that is the action of the Initiation that we speak of here, that action of the Sacred Name that God has given us to share with those souls that are ready to begin that action of returning Home. That is the action in its simplicity. That Sacred Name is that action of which we now begin to let go of the world and now take hold of the Spirit that we are; that Sacred Name in our soul as our anchor, our new foundation, that rock upon which we can now build.

But it does take time. That’s probably the hardest part is the time that it takes for that transition or transformation of that letting go and turning away from, because not only are we letting go of the world, but in that is all that’s in the emotional world, in the imagination world, in the mental worlds, even in the unconscious and subconscious worlds. There’s a lot of letting go. It takes time to do that, as it took time to connect and attach to it in the beginning. So it takes time to let go of it in the end. But just know what you’re gaining, and that takes time as well. It takes time to awaken, to know that which we are gaining in Spirit as we’re letting go of that which is in the world.

So in that transition, part of the reason it takes time is that in the gradualness it gives us at least some level of stability, in the sense of safety and confidence, in taking the actions of letting go so we can let God and now anchor ourselves and attach ourselves to God within – to turn around so that we begin to face the Creator rather than the reflection and that image we’ve been living in the world.

Again, it’s very simple. We can talk about it in a lot of different ways, like we do, but it doesn’t matter how we do it. It’s the doing of it. So just realize even in the simple action of meditation, when you close your eyes and begin that action of turning within, just pay attention when all those different thoughts show up and feelings and fantasies and physical sensations. Let it all be okay. Don’t struggle with it. It’s not a fight. It’s simply a process of acknowledging and letting go. 

Monthly Focus “going Home work” ~

1. Do 2.5 hours of daily meditation, and listen to the talk by Brian Yeakey titled:  Ending The Game
2. Listen to the guided open-ended meditation by Brian Yeakey titled: Wake Up
3. Journal the following questions:

• • Where in your life do you have faith and trust in yourself?
  • Where in your life do you have faith and trust in God?
  • Is there anywhere in your life where you don’t have faith and trust either in yourself or in God or both? If so, where and what does that look and feel like and how does that affect your life? 
  • What’s one thing in the world you’re attached to, judging, fearing, an image you’re holding on to, or where you’re not trusting yourself and/or God in, that you can acknowledge right now to let go of?
  • What do “inner connection”, “inner awakening”, and “inner foundation with Spirit” mean to you? How can you live more into that?

Contemplate the following statements by Brian: 

• • And so in this transition, know that we’re just simply now letting go out here where we’ve been holding on. And then when we let go, well now in that is a freedom. There’s a transition now in the letting go, and the transformation is the turning around; the transformation of turning around and facing to God, so that now we come back in and now we begin to take hold of the soul that we are. And that is the action of the Initiation that we speak of here, that action of the Sacred Name that God has given us to share with those souls that are ready to begin that action of returning Home. That is the action in its simplicity. That Sacred Name is that action of which we now begin to let go of the world and now take hold of the Spirit that we are; that Sacred Name in our soul as our anchor, our new foundation, that rock upon which we can now build.
  • It’s the doing of it. So just realize even in the simple action of meditation, when you close your eyes and begin that action of turning within, just pay attention when all those different thoughts show up and feelings and fantasies and physical sensations. Let it all be okay. Don’t struggle with it. It’s not a fight. It’s simply a process of acknowledging and letting go.